I had a spiritual breakdown eight years ago. Riddled with disappointment and anger with God for not doing what He promised, I became weary of waiting for God’s goodness. I couldn’t pray, or if I did, my prayers were filled with bitterness, sadness, and despair.
In the midst of teaching others that God spoke, healed and saved, we witnessed our friends die of cancer and we struggled financially. I was doing the “right stuff’ but things weren’t working out “right”. It wasn’t until after a traumatic event that I realized all this and I found myself losing hope.
A few weeks later, home alone with my miserable self, I heard Papa God say to me, “A promise is as good as the person who makes it. You believe I am good for others, but you don’t believe I am good for you. I want to give you unshakeable faith in my goodness. I am going to astound you with my goodness so that you truly know that I am good.” Read the rest of this entry »