In 2003 I dreamed a dream that changed me forever:
Though I couldn’t see much I could understand exactly what was happening. I had no physical form yet, but I knew it was me. God was hovering over me as He created me. A tangible ‘waiting’ and awe hung in the atmosphere. It felt like heaven held its breath. His anticipation and desire for me were so intense – it is impossible to describe.
When I awoke I could still feel this love. I was undone. The awe of the dream stayed with me for a few days, but I was perplexed by the dream. It didn’t fit my theology: I saw a love that was so unique toward me that it was like I was His favorite; like He loved Mandy in a way that no-one else could know.
I was embarrassed to feel like this until I realized that it was true. He loves each one in a way that is so intimate it is only shared by God and the one He loves. We are all His favorites.
But how can there be more than one favorite? God reveals this mystery to us through our own ability to love. The Father has made us moms and dads like Him- we love as parents because we are created in His image.
When my first baby Lindy came I knew I could never love another child like this. Then came Jenna; suddenly my heart instantly had a new chamber. I loved Jenna with a ‘Jenna love’, so intimate that only Jenna and myself could share this. Jenna was my favorite and so was Lindy, whom I loved with a ‘Lindy’ love that no-one but the two of us could know.
We develop new love chambers as we birth new children no matter how many kids we have. If one child is lost we could never fill our empty chamber with another child because the original child is irreplaceable.
So it is with God; no-one can be replaced. If a person will not receive God’s love there remains an empty chamber in His heart. No one could ever fill that place in God’s heart reserved only for one child. He loves us uniquely and He has specific dreams for each of us to fulfill that no-one else can fill.
It is impossible to lose our value though sometimes we may feel like it. The value that He first created in us remains in us and nothing can strip it from us because God breathed it into us. Not sin, hardship or unbelief. When we were in our worst state God still valued us so much that he gave everything for us and now through His blood we can be perfectly restored to His heart.
Confess your true identity in the third person, listen and receive:
———-(your name) is valuable to his/her Father.
———-(your name) is irreplaceable to his/her Father.
———-(your name) is intimately known by his/her Father.
———-(your name) carries a piece of his/her Father’s dream that only ——– can step into.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
towhen I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
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